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FYF lyrics

LYRICS

 

Part A:  Forget Yer Face

 

1. Nightcrawler (Alertnate title: Elsewhere Bound)

He tried slipping her a note underneath the door

But she caught him with a lump in his throat, he can’t see her no more

Well he hides from himself as he runs from his problems

People he’s with tell him he ain’t no better

So he walks through the hall like an unopened letter

That he’ll never read til he’s dead

 

Nightcrawler, moving underground

Give him a holler, he can’t be found

Nightcrawler, move without a sound

Give him a holler, he can’t be found

He’s elsewhere bound

 

He tried to slip into the distance with pressing thoughts that lost their way

But a memory puts up a strong resistance and haunts her still today

 Well she hides from herself as she runs from her problems

People she’s with tell her she ain’t no better

So she walks through the hall like an unopened letter

That she’ll never read til she’s dead

 

Nightcrawler, moving underground

Give her a holler, she can’t be found

Nightcrawler, move without a sound

Give her a holler, she can’t be found

She’s elsewhere bound

They can’t be found, they’re elsewhere bound

  

2. The Tune Unfamiliar

In West Carolina  the mountains look down

On a place near forgotten, I hope it ain’t found

Golden string banjo that plays on its own

A tune unfamiliar that you’ve always known

 

And I’ve finally found something that feels like it’s true

And I’ll not never let go of Asheville

I’ll not never let go of you

 

If you wake up in Texas and you’re walking the street

Find you a drummer to pound out the beat

You might find yourself playing at yesterday’s bar

The tune unfamiliar cause that’s how it are

 

And I’ve finally found something that feels like it’s true

And I’ll not never let go of Austin

I’ll not never let go of you

I’ll not never forget about nothing

I’ll not never forget about you

 

3. Dichotomy

If you give up all yer anger and you give up all yer pride

They’ll put two nails through yer hands and a spear right through yer side

That’s just what we did to Jesus and his men

To stomp out the message before it could begin

...but it did begin

 

A gross miscalculation in the courage of mankind

Kept on spreading his good news paying danger no mind

And what they left behind was a legacy

For those who’ll never see the wounds but still believe

...I still believe

 

Don’t deceive yourself into thinking that

You're different from the ones who nailed him to that tree

Don’t deceive yourself into thinking that

You're different from the ones Who spread the word to you and me

That’s dichotomy

 

He came down from heaven, Father’s only son

Started spreading love around to each and everyone

Some said, “He called himself a king!”

He’s gonna raise an army and conquer everything

That’s not what he mean

 

He made friends with beggars, sinners in their cells

Some say, “I don’t need your grace” but he loves them just as well

Some said, “Why can’t he save himself?”

He gathered up the sins of man and dropped them off in Hell

Then he got the hell out of there

 

Don’t deceive yourself into thinking that

You're different from the ones who nailed him to that tree

Don’t deceive yourself into thinking that

You're different from the ones who spread the word to you and me

That’s dichotomy

 

4. I Knew

I met you last week and I knew

That I’d like to see a lot more of you

We were hanging out on the bench

Talked about nothing and it made sense

I met you last week and I knew

 

I met you last summer and I knew

That there wouldn’t be any getting over you

Both finally came around

Jumped off the edge and never hit the ground

I met you last summer and I knew

 

Met you 25 years ago and I knew

That we’d still be sticking it out

Through the stormy weather and through the doubt

I met you last week and I knew

 

5. NTLTT (Alternate title: Meditations of the Transcendental Trucker)

Ain’t taking my time cause there’s no time left to take

4 tons is a 55, I’m doing 95 with 8.

Ain’t taking my time cause there’s no time left to take

Called you up cause I feel lonesome, and I can’t stay awake

 

When I try it seems so far away

But when I die I’ll have no more to say, okay?

Maybe I will have more to say but no way to say it

 

Ain’t taking my time cause there’s no time left to take

Carolina mountain high and I ain’t touched the brake

Ain’t taking my time cause there’s no time left to take

Been riding between the lines for a hundred hours straight

 

When I try it seems so far away

But when I die I’ll have no more to say, okay?

Maybe I will have more to say but no way to say it


When I try it seems so far away

But when I die I’ll have no more to say, okay?

Maybe I will have more to say but no way to say it

I know I can’t delay it

 

Don’t slow down, keep them tire rolling all night long

 

6. E. Rose (written by Jerry Ater)

 
She was like a candle, she burned like fire

All my thoughts were petty, but she only spoke in flowers

I could swim for hours in deep blue her eyes they glow

Soft and free as my Elizabeth Rose

 

She said I gotta move to Asheville, it’s time I had a change

Staley won’t stop barkin, he knows the mountains call my name

The starlight smiles to shine inside, the darkness slowly grows

Pullin petals for my Elizabeth Rose

 

Elizabeth Rose, can justice be so blind that it must torture me?

Cause you below inside my arms like wind belongs to trees

If I could trace with fingers a face that beauty only knows

Leaves me searching for my Elizabeth Rose, here goes

 

Shagged out on the streets I held up in a cave

Why’d we close that book before we even turned the page?

What lies on the other side? I think I’m ‘fraid to know

Soft and free as my Elizabeth Rose

Pullin petals for my Elizabeth Rose

And it leaves me searching for my Elizabeth Rose

 

7. (Just To Be) In the Crowd

She tried to make it through without any help from you

But as a memory you just refused to stay

She took you one more round, and you took her down

Stopped her heart and took it all away

 

What she ever had or she ever wanted

Dreams that she never dared talking about

Now we’re left standing with a drink in our hands

Wondering what we’ll ever do without her

 

Well she smiles in our minds and we’re wishing we could hear her laugh

One more time, even if it’s too loud

Even if it’s too loud

 

Now we sit around always talking about songs that he used to play

Is he still alone? Did he ever make it home? And would he write if he  were around today about...

What he ever had or he ever wanted

Dreams that he never dared talking about

Now we’re left standing with a drink in our hands

Wondering what we’ll ever do without him

 

Well he smiles in our minds and we’re wishing we could hear him play

One more time, just to be in the crowd

Just to be in the crowd

(And hearing him play it loud)

 

8. Landmine of Mine

Landmine of mine

What’s on your mind this time, what’s on your mind this time?

 

I didn’t notice

I forget what your showed us

 

I didn’t notice

I figured you owed us

 

Passed out on the ground

Passed up in the lost and found, passed up in the lost and found

(I’m elsewhere bound)

 

I didn’t notice

I figured you owed us

 

For all the bad songs

The not-quites and the long-gones

 

9. Before Long

Today is gone, and tomorrow will be here before long
Before short before meaning appeared
There was you trying to hide from yourself once again
And it gets so hard to tell if he's your foe or he's your friend
But he knows where you’re going just a second before you do
Yeah he do.

Since you couldn't get away you hung out every day

and you don't have much to say when they came

for you and your friends and your family and the kids

down the street so you hid in the basement looking down at your feet
As you tried to block out all the screams and the shouts

and the cries for your help in their moment of

need and wealth, misery and health, poverty
and injustice you can’t see

transcendence and greed and wounds that bleed and vampires that feed and shirts without sleeves

and the pants that you wear when your lounging around

thinking how will I get myself up off the ground

when you already are standing strong and tall with your back at the wall looking on down the hall
looking up the street looking down the road looking out if front looking back at the load
That you carry around and won't let you run
And the choices that you made when you thought that it was dumb
but it really was the most important thing you ever did

yeah you did, yeah you did

and if you didn't then you will before long, before long,

before it’s gone
Today is gone and tomorrow will be here before long

 

10. One Chance (It’s Yer Turn)

You only get one chance and it your turn now

Make your mark in the sand before you burn down

Cause they’ll forget your face and won’t remember your name

You’ve just got yourself and time to blame

 

You only get one chance and it’s your turn now

One more test, let’s see what you learned now

Cause everything you got’s the only thing it take

Getting born was your first mistake

 

Ripple from the source

Altering the course

Changing it for better, or for worse but forever

 

You only get one chance and it your turn now

Make your mark in the sand before you burn out

Cause they’ll forget your face and won’t remember your name

We only hope that you stay sane

Cause we all know that you can’t remain

 

Ripple from the source

Altering the course

Changing it for better, or for worse but forever 

 

Part B:  Cosmic American Heritage



11. Onward and Upward

Missed the best one looking for a better one

Got the worst one but it suits me

Left the living too young to justify

Watch from above as my friend shoots me

 

Fall on back to better space

I can see the writing on your face and the tracks you try to trace

 

Missed the best one looking for a better one

Got the next one but it lets me

Forget the feeling of searching for something

Watching the last one that forgets me

 

Fall on back to better space

I can see the writing on your face and the tracks you try to trace

 

I see another one running out to the west

Cause he couldn’t face dying like all of the rest

He always went to sleeping with a gun beneath his head

But the best laid plans can’t help you when you’re dead

 

Onward and upward

 

12. Towin That Line 

Another day of eternity and another Sunday afternoon of doing what I please

Another night of staring at the stars

When you put it in your pocket it won’t take you very far

Walk slow, there ain’t too many places you really gotta go

 

Chopping wood and carrying water, she tried to run before I caught her

A moment in the sun

Lost as soon as it was found, convenience store on sacred ground

There grows another one

We let go of holding on to something we didn’t want to throw

 

We’re towing that line with all our might

Burning with indifference, a single candle light

That flickers when we move along too fast

It’s longer than we wanted it to last

 

Just a thought I came upon, a dew drop hiding from the dawn

That burns off with the day

Like a saving river through the sand

The water flowed right through my hand

Nothing left to take away

They sowed the seeds for ending suffering but we didn’t let them grow

 

We’re towing that line with all our might

Burning with indifference, a single candle light

That flickers when we move along too fast

It’s longer than we wanted it to last

 

The dumbest joke you ever tried to understand

A masterpiece of meaning, creation planned

Either/or, both/and



13. (Aren’t You) Grateful (?)

See yourself standing on the corner

Waiting for the lights to change and along with them the way that you been living

Wishing things were better than they used to be

But you had no choice cause you had to learn to take what you been given

 

Open wide, beware of the hateful

Go outside, aren’t you grateful?

Aren’t you grateful?

 

When the other side of the traintracks

Is where you’ve always been

When the roof above your head is filled with holes

It’s hard to keep the rain from coming in

But your eyes have seen the key that opens every door

And it’s good to know you have it when you just can’t take no more

 

Open wide, beware of the hateful

Go outside, aren’t you grateful?

Aren’t you grateful that you did?

Aren’t you grateful that you’re still just a kid?

Aren’t you grateful for the way that she smiles?

Aren’t you grateful that we talked for a while?

Aren’t you grateful that you ain’t ducking for cover?

Aren’t you grateful for a brother?

 

Aren’t you grateful for the candy floss that you had?

Aren’t you grateful for your mother and your dad?

Aren’t you grateful for the slower things?

Aren’t you grateful for the joy that the country brings?

 

14. Turned Away

Jesus take away the voice in my mind

That compels me to stray from you and commit deeds unkind

 

I fear that I’ll never see your sweet home above

Too many times I’ve turned away from your love

 

I’ve heard the words you said, that ain’t how I live

Things these two hands have done, too much to forgive

 

I fear that I’ll never see your sweet home above

Too many times I’ve turned away from your love

 

I’ll come running if you call my name

But if you should let me burn, I’d be to blame

Yeah I’d be to blame

 

15. Wear It Like a Hat

You try to make me think I’m doing something wrong

You try to make me feel like I don’t belong

You try to knock me off the road I’m moving down

You’d love to make me scream but you won’t hear a sound

 

So I’ll pacify your aggression and just like Jesus turn my head

But if it only makes you come down harder and stronger and I get to feeling that I’d like to hit you back instead...

 

Maybe kill you dead

Cut off your head, wear it like a hat into town

And let the whole world know that I wasn’t put here for you to mess me around

 

Could be a sane man with an insane mind

Could be a thoughtless fool with an axe to grind

Could be a savage beast with a heart of stone

I may never act out thoughts that I must call my own

 

So I’ll pacify your aggression and just like Jesus turn my head

But if it only makes you come down harder and stronger and I get to feeling that I’d like to hit you back instead...

 

Maybe kill you dead

Cut off your head, wear it like a hat into town

And let the whole world know that I wasn’t put here for you to f me around

 

Don’t try to make me think I’m doing something wrong

Don’t try to make me feel like I don’t belong

Don’t try to cut the cord that separates me from

The devil’s friends below, lest I become one

 

So I’ll pacify your aggression and just like Jesus turn my head

But if it only makes you come down harder and stronger and I get to feeling that I’d like to hit you back instead...

 

Forget what I said

 

16. Do Them In

Treading muddy water, feet can’t touch the ground

You grab the hand that tries to save you, and pull it down

Someone told you long ago we’re bound by evil ways

Since that time you’ve wasted life on miserable days

 

Drowning promises never intended for keeping

Like your momma says

Gonna do them in when you think they’re sleeping

After all they’re doing you in too

 

Open doors to limited perception

You see me looking your direction and you close yourself off in introspection

Fascinated by your own reflection

 

Drowning promises never intended for keeping

Like your daddy says

Gonna do them in when you think they’re sleeping

After all they’re doing you in too

 

Sometimes it seems so hard to tell the distance

Between this life and meaningless existence

But we’re all born and we all must suffer

Sometimes I dream that we won’t fail each other

 

Sometimes it seems so hard to tell the distance

Between this life and magnificent existence

But we’re all born and therefore we must suffer

Sometimes I dream that we won’t fail each other

 

Injuries you won’t let go, scars you won’t let heal

Perpetuate your broken thought and watch it become real

 

Drowning promises never intended for keeping

Like the Bible says

Gonna do them in when you think they’re sleeping

After all they’re doing you in too

 

17. Braver Than Yer Thinkin

You’re braver than you’re thinking 

Up against doubt and circumstances way beyond your control

You have traveled on path littered with the corpses

Of those who haven’t made it quite as far along as you have

You’re braver than you’re thinking

After a billion years of tinkering and fiddling

You’re the latest model of its great design

And though you’re thinking you’re alone in this world

There’s a trillion more of your kind

And they’re all rooting and hollering for you

Cause the reason they existed was for you

So don’t go f-ing it all up with low self esteem and drinking

You’re more important than you’re thinking

And you’re braver than you’re thinking

 

18. Red Bird (Lookin For a Sign)

I saw a red bird this morning

I saw a red bird today

It turned my frown into a smile

Turned my laugh into a tear that I let fall down just one time

Cause I know you’ll be fine

 

I saw a red bird this afternoon

I saw a red bird today

It taught me how to live my life

Taught me how to conquer fear and all the doubts that haunt my mind

 

You got me looking for a sign

That you taught me to find

You taught me how to find

 

Beauty hiding all around

A miracle just waiting to be found

 

I saw a red bird this evening

I saw a red bird today

It flapped its wings and flew away

Its memory will never leave until I’ve left this world behind

 

Now I’m looking for a sign

That you taught me to find

You taught me how to find

 

We will miss you cause we love you more than we can describe

 
19. Instrumental (Stir That Squirrel Gravy)

 
20. The Message (Part 2)

When I got in I had no idea

That it would end

But I found out the gods had not imparted

Immortality on mortal men

 

I was angry, I was mad

For the glimpse that I had

Of things I now could see were nothing short of fleeting

And that’s sad, it’s real sad

 

When I got out I had some idea

Of what had begun

I found out what I thought was separate

Were simply different parts of the same one

 

I was happy, I was glad

For the glimpse that I had

Of things I now could see had no beginning and no end

And my friend that ain’t bad